It seemed a very one note sauce as-is, so I used Sriracha sauce and cayenne in place of Chili Powder, Onion with a very teeny, tiny dice in place of onion power, and garlic salt in place of powdered garlic.  Also, I added a little bit of oregano for depth.  Everything is always measured to taste with me but I kept the oil, water, and tomato sauce ratio suggested in the recipe.  I’ll never buy canned sauce again!

Now for the enchiladas!  I have pre-made tortillas from whole foods that I warmed up in the micro to make them pliable.  I then took one can of vegetarian refried beans, a quarter of a large onion diced, and a half of a can of corn.  I mixed those together in a bowl and then added a handful of Daiya Cheddar flavor cheese substitute and mixed that in. I put a little sauce on the bottom of my clay baking pan that is shaped like a piggie.  I filled and rolled the tortillas and put them in the pan.  On top, I put some more Daiya cheese and all of the enchilada sauce.  I baked at 375 for 25 mins (time will vary by oven). Then I ate… and then I ate the leftovers after my run today.  My husband (fully committed cheese-aholic) loved them – he knew there was something about them since I was eating Vegan so suspected they were non-dairy, but thought they were delicious (though he would have liked more onion).

DEEEELISH!!

Anyway, in the last two episodes different gangs on this show have had people drive cars through the protective gates of their compounds and open fire.

So, I posed this question to Dave: “If you had a need to have a compound that requires a gate and you REALLY want to keep people out, shouldn’t you have one of those spike strips so it could blow out the tires of intruders? You’d just pull it back before opening the gate for people you’re allowing in the compound.” To which Dave replied: “I think maybe you should go work for a motorcycle gang.”

It’s good to have a fall-back career option.

-Jimmy Buffett-

I am full of indecision lately, which is uncharacteristic of me.  And not about anything of importance mind you, like career or lunch, but in areas of little importance – I just can’t seem to make a decision.

I wrapped my left handlebar backwards and I can’t decide if I want to fix it.  It is kind of nice in the drops because it keeps my hand from slipping – but that wasn’t really a problem I was having anyway.  So, rather than go through the rigamarole of fixing it, I guess I’m leaving it.  I did a nice job wrapping it though – so that’s something.  My right handlebar is wrapped correctly – I can’t figure out how I got one wrong and one right, but that’s just a me kind of thing that I would do.

I also can’t decide if I want to take my aerobars off of my road bike.  I don’t really ride in them – I prefer my drops, I always have.  Plus, I think it looks nicer.  I plan on getting a TT bike next year at some point, which would mean they would come off then anyway.  Aerobars without shifters seem kind of pointless to me…

I did decide to do the Chicagoland Tour de Cure to benefit the American Diabetes Association.  I am not actively fundraising for it though – I just paid the minimum fundraising amount so that I didn’t have to go around begging people for $10 at a time.  I’m saving my fundraising mojo for something big one day… I’m not sure what it is yet so keep that $10 on the side for me.  I opted for the metric century in the tour, which is somewhere around 60 miles.  That will be great training for the Ironman 70.3 Racine which is coming up in July.  I am considering following up the ride with a 30 minute run – but I can decide on that later.

~Bern Williams~

Ah, it’s Spring again the time when a triathlete’s thoughts turn to “Oh. My. God.  My race is only ‘X’ number of weeks away!” But, the sun is shinier and the weather is warmer.  The bugs are coming out (ugh) and the birds are active.

Ah, the birds – I always forget about the damn birds.  See, I have a slight bird problem.  I’m not referring to the fact that I tend to find abandoned baby birds that I have to nurse back to health, which is also a problem I have. (I don’t know how birds do it honestly – baby birds are EXHAUSTING.)

I’m referring to the fact that every spring I inevitably get assaulted by a red-winged blackbird.  I know I can’t be the only one this happens to, but I have been attacked by these birds a number of times.  I’ve been actually physically assaulted by these birds.  I’m talking pecked in the head assaulted.  I’ve been sneak attacked, chased, dive-bombed, and frontally assaulted. Apparently these birds are insanely territorial when nesting.  Apparently I also have insanely bad luck and repeatedly find myself in their neighborhoods – which is everywhere because they live in the freaking trees.

Assailant

So, while on my run yesterday along my normal route enjoying the warm Spring weather with a “doodeedoodeedoo” in my head, I hear a very familiar sound… THIS SOUND.  This sound incites terror to my very core.  I don’t think you can really understand how messed up it is to be attacked by a bird while just going along minding your own business.  And then yesterday, from the bare bushes of a field, I was being watched.  And “chip chip chip”-ed at.

It’s unsettling, and I have no way to combat these vengeful terrorists.  Dave said they can smell my fear – I think he’s right.

and you don’t have to listen.

-Nike-

Well, that’s it – I registered for my 2011 races and my 2011 training season has begun!  For everyone wondering, I am NOT doing a full-Ironman distance race this year.  I’ve decided on one half-marathon and two 70.3 (half-Ironman) distance races.  Here’s the list:

Cincinnati Flying Pig Half-Marathon (Sunday, May 1, 2011)

This year I will return to “the nasty” to run my third Flying Pig Half-Marathon.  I will not be taking a bathroom break this year.  I am also aiming for a completion time of 2 hours and 15 minutes.  I think I am at the point where finishing below 2:30 is well within my reach and, if I work hard, I won’t have any reason not to hit that time.

Ironman 70.3 Racine (Sunday, July 17, 2011)

I decided my first 70.3 of the year would be Racine because of, well, timing.  It’s on July 17th which allows me enough time to recover and resume training for another 70.3.  I really loved Ironman 70.3 Steelhead, it was a great race.  It was a hard decision but timing and the fact that this race is a little of an hour & a half away from home made this a no-brainer.  I hear the roads are rough for the first 8 miles out and the last 8 miles back in but I’m taking that chance for a close to home race in July.  I’m looking to hit about 7 hours with this race.  It’s got more rolling hills than Steelhead but there were so many things that cost me time in my first 70.3 that I just will not do wrong again.

Rev3 Cedar Point – 70.3 Distance (Sept. 11, 2011)

I have heard excellent things about the Rev3 races and cannot wait for this one!  Add in that there are so many people that I know that are going to be there and that made registering for this race a total no-brainer.  I had a slight reservation since it’s on September 11th and that’s the same day Ironman Wisconsin is being held.  I was planning to volunteer for IMWI (or IMoo as it were) so I can sign up for it next year.  But decided it would be way more fun for me to go play and race with my friends – besides, there’s always the REv3 Full 140.6 distance next year!  My goal is to be around 6 hours & 30 minutes – I’m going to work hard this summer, so we’ll see how I do.

So, that is my full list of big races for the year!  I’m eying the Walt Disney World Marathon for 2012 too.  That half-marathon was so well run that if I do another marathon, it will be that one for sure.  But, I have to get through this season first… which brings me to my training plan.

I am coachless this year.  We have a number of big purchases (fence, furniture, attic organization project, possibly another car – ugh my wallet hurts already) on top of my saving for a new, super-sweet triathlon bike.  So, coaching fell to the bottom of the list of things-that-I-need-because-I-want.  So, that means I’m self-coaching.  My former-and-I-wish-she-still-was-my-coach MJ Slikas has very nicely agreed that once I get my plans together that she’ll look at them at a high level & give me a thumbs up/down.  She’s a class act with a big heart.

I think I have most of it down and am almost ready to post it.  Base phase for Racine 70.3 will start on February 27th.  Right now I’m doing lighter base workouts as prep to get my lazy butt back in gear.  The Disney Half-Marathon was the first time I had even run since November!  It’s felt good to be back on a schedule and I’m getting my eating back on target too.  This is the first year I actually feel like an educated triathlete and I think the self-coaching will help me over the long haul to understand even more.  I do have to say I want to be much better about metrics and understanding where I am and how I’m progressing.  So, keep an eye out for that and if you’re interested in my day-to-day you can find me as Dickers on Buckeye Outdoors.

• 1/4 cup (4 TBS) of Earth Balance (I used their Vegan Buttery Sticks)
• 1 clove garlic
• 1 cup Almond milk (you can probably use other milk substitutes, but I wanted sweet for the sauce this time)
• To taste, add by tablespoon: Eat in the Raw Vegan Parmesan
• To taste: Kosher Salt
• To Thicken: Corn Starch (you could probably also use chickpea flour instead if you have it)

Melt the Earth Balance, then saute garlic in it for a minute or two.  Whisk in the Almond milk, preferably with a roux whisk.  Whisk in (tablespoon by tablespoon) the Raw Vegan Parmesean.  Whisk in small amounts of corn starch to thicken, being careful not to overthicken.  Salt to taste and bam!

I served it with sauteed broccoli over Quinoa Pasta – which are both also vegan and gluten free.

Let me know how  you like it if you try it!

Zig Ziglar

Well, here we are – 2011.  Still no jet packs or flying cars, so that’s kind of a let down.  Though, the average IQ of the general public seems to be decreasing, so it’s probably best that we’re not giving people complicated flight equipment for daily use.  With the beginning of a new year most people have resolutions.  They make these resolutions with hope in their hearts and then, like my normal random initiatives (*cough*flee the fat pants*cough*), they forget them or abandon them.

I don’t think I made a resolution last year – though in years passed I’ve been pretty successful with mine.  I’ve quit smoking, quit binge drinking as a regular part of my lifestyle, started working out more regularly than not at all, and did a triathlon (which led to another… and another… and another… well, you get it).  Usually, my resolutions come in the fall or at the start of the training season.  This year, I’ve decided on giving the year 2011 a theme – Discipline.  No, I’ve not gone all dominatrix you pervo.  I mean discipline with eating, exercising, training, and living in general… starting right after Disney, of course.

That said, I have an interesting plan for my 2011 triathlon season:  A do over.  A year of doing my same races from 2010 all over again.  But better this time.  See in my brain, aside from my half-Ironman, my 2010 in retrospect looks like a year of failures.  I want to try it all over again – and how often in life are we able to do that?!

I’m not 100% on my plan but here’s what it would look like:

• Capital View Tri in Madison: I flatted twice on the course resulting in a DNF.  The year before, I finished last.  So, I want to finish this hilly hell of a course somewhere in the MOP this year.  Then, I can stop racing this race every year and never again do that disgusting swim that makes me dry heave just typing about it.
• Steelhead 70.3 – I loved this race course. Plan is to beat my time & get as close to finishing in 6h30m as I can.
• Chicago Marathon – that’s right, I think I’ll give it a go.  Not finishing has left a sour taste in my mouth.  And while I don’t really want to do this again… ever, really… I really want to finish it.

I had planned on two 70.3 races this year, but I really need some closure.  I think it will be good for me to stop, reassess, and finish what I started in 2010 before I move forward.  I’m still planning a 140.6 in 2012 – I just haven’t figured out which race that will be yet – eh, one year at a time.

I ask myself the cookie question all the time; I always choose cookie.  Cookies can’t be the wrong answer, right?  Well, apparently, they can be.  Yesterday I went to Nordstrom’s annual Private Shopping Night and I was trying on jeans and realized they were too tight.  They were my brand.  They were my cut.  It wasn’t the jeans – it was my gut and my butt!

Alarm bells went off in my head and just then the sales lady came back and asked how things were.  I’m like, “not good – I’m too fat!”  She said “I don’t think those are too tight” (they were) “but I can get you the next size up.”  I looked at her blankly.  This would not solve my problem. What an enabler!  I said “No thanks, I think I’ll just put off buying a new pair of jeans until I shrink my ass.”  She laughed and said that was an OK thing to do.

It was at this point I realized I had a problem.  In my off-season (OK and during the season), I’ve overindulged and under-moved.  It’s time to get back on the horse (you know, before I become as big as one).  So, in the middle of cookie baking season, I have to try to get my eating habits under control.  And, I have to start moving, every day, no excuses.  Last week, Brett had posted a link to another blog (In Over Your Head) which is especially pertinent & worth a read, entitled Stop Being a F*cking P*ussy.  If you’re not going to read it (though you really should), here’s the gist:

Ok, you want to be successful. You think you’re trying your hardest. Dammit you are pretty sure you’re gunning for it, really hard!

But here is the truth: You’re not.

And therein a training slogan is born…  Starting today, I pledge to Stop Being a F*cking P*ssy (or SBFP for short as the CREW christened it).  Really.  I won’t whine about getting up early, or not getting to eat cookies.  I won’t use not having a car in the evening to get to the gym as an excuse to not work out at home. (I have more than enough fitness DVDs, plus an indoor trainer – not to mention, roads just made for running right outside.  I will use not having the car in the evening as an excuse to go to the gym in the morning. And I will eat what I’m supposed to eat (whole grains, veggies, etc) and not what I’m not supposed to eat (cookies, cakes, sugar, sugar, sugar).

And because I’m saying this, I’m going to use this very blog to track what I’m doing.  I haven’t decided if it will be daily or weekly, but it will be timely. (Here’s what will happen, I’ll start out all go for the gusto with a daily tracking then go to weekly.)  Regardless of how often, I have to hold myself accountable and this is a good space to do it.  And hopefully in time, you’ll see I’m NBFP.

Oh, what a riot, Blubber‘s on a diet! I wonder what’s the matter. I think she’s getting fatter… And fatter… And fatter… And fatter… Pop!

-Blubber, Judy Blume-

- Thomas Jefferson -

Today I read an article in the Huffington Post (this article) about how Representative Judy Biggert made significant investments in L-3 Communications. Ms. Biggert holds between $15,001 and $50,000 in investments in L-3, making her Congress’s fourth-largest investor in the company.  L-3 Communications was awarded a $165 million contract to provide our government with full-body scanners (yes, those scanners on the news at night).

Ms. Biggert also happens to be my Congressional Representative here in the 13th district of IL.  (A few others are investors as well – you can find the list here on Open Secrets blog.) Upon finding this out, I was disappointed to say the least. So, I decided to write a letter to Congresswoman Biggert, and it went a little something like this:

I am writing to you today to express my dismay at having read an article on the Huffington Post addressing what appears to be a blatant conflict of interest.  In the article it is explained that you disclosed in your 2009 Personal Disclosure form that you own between $15,001 and $50,000 worth of stock in L-3 Communications.  The same company that was awarded, as a result of a vote in which you participated, what appears to be a $165 million contract to provide full-body scanning machines.  These same machines that are popping up all over our airports.

Ms. Biggert, I voted for you.  I’ve voted for you every time you’ve been on the ballot since I was 18 years of age.  I like you and agree with most of your positions.  When I write to you, I always receive a reply.  I appreciate what you do for our district, as well as for our state. And while I might not agree with you 100% of the time, I’ve always felt you were a levelheaded and intelligent decision-maker.  Which is why it angers me SO thoroughly that you would participate in a vote that would allocate money to full-body scanning contractors knowing full well that your investment is a conflict of interest.  It’s dishonest, plainly and simply.

I did read that your press secretary indicated that your broker makes your investment decisions.  Please don’t attempt to hide behind that excuse.  I’m still responsible for every dollar I spend, whether it goes to the grocery store or to purchase a share of a company that happens to benefit directly from legislation I can help mold.

I understand deeply the need for airline safety, and while I have definite opinions on what is being done right now, this letter is not about airline safety.  It’s not even an issue of whether or not I agree or disagree with the fact that the L-3 Communications lobbyists are very-well connected with other Congressional Representatives and Senators (we can discuss lobbying at another time too).  It’s not about whether or not you believed everything in that bill was the right thing to do.

This is about the blatant disregard of a political representative in a case where there was a clear conflict of interest.  As a tax-paying voter in a time where there aren’t a lot of people in office that bother to represent their constituents, I expected more from you.  As a private citizen, I have the right to lobby my representatives to protect my personal financial interests (opposing the Durbin Interchange Amendment, for example).  You, as a public servant, do not have that luxury.  Please be more careful in the future – your voters are watching.

If you find that you have a Representative on that Open Secrets blog list with this conflict, please send them an email or a letter.  You can even call them on the phone.  Just let them know you’re paying attention and will be holding them accountable come election time.

“Hey, hey, If you would take a second, take the little sticks out of your head, clean out your ears, and maybe you would see that I’m a person who has feelings, and all I have to do is do what I wanna do and all I want to do is hold on to my bag and not listen to you!”
- Greg Focker in Meet the Parents-

I’ve been meaning to write a post about not finishing the Chicago Marathon, but I really just didn’t have a whole lot to say.  As a recap, for those of you who aren’t aware, my right hamstring seized up at about mile 14.  I walked until I hit the med tent at 16.5 and signed up for the runner drop out.  I didn’t want to walk another 10 miles, it looked like a zombie death march out there and that wasn’t what I signed up for.  Anyway, once I stopped running, I noticed some pains that I don’t usually have (left knee) and some that were worse than what I’ve ever felt before (top of right foot).  So, in the interest of not being injured, I opted to drop out.  I couldn’t run and didn’t want the finish badly enough to keep going.  I was OK with it.  I was the only idiot on the drop out bus that didn’t look like I wanted to die or cry.  The next few days were rough with my legs, but a week & a half later I’m all aces.

So, in the immortal words of Forrest Gump, that’s all I have to say about that.  What I found afterward is really what interested me.  Most people were supportive of my decision, some people were less understanding and said strange things.  While I’m all for support, neither one of these things really affects me either way.  I think praise and support are great, I really appreciate kind words and knowing I have people behind me – it means a ton.  I love to feel the love.  But, it doesn’t drive me to finish or keep going or anything else.  Every race is still my own and I’d expect these people to still root for me in the future if things go south right now.

Then, there are the naysayers.  To them I echo what Phil so succinctly states, AYHSMB.  If there are people that don’t expect me to finish, or think I can’t, or think I should be doing shorter distances, or don’t get why I do this, I really don’t give a shit.  It doesn’t motivate me further, it doesn’t make me angry.  I really don’t care.  Sometimes I wish people would get a clue, but my thoughts don’t really extend beyond that at all.

So, I guess if you take one thing away from that, it’s that I care but I really don’t care. haha  I guess it’s always been my thought that if you believe the good things people say about you, you have to believe the bad stuff.  So, it’s easier just to qualify it all as noise.  I know myself, my motivations, and where I am.  I don’t answer to anyone else (unless I’m at work and you’re signing my paycheck, then I care… deeply).

We all know a lot of triathletes, cyclists, runners, swimmer, bowlers, golfers – whatever – athletes in general  and some are the type-A, want to do their best, want to give you advice, judge you by their standards kind of people (*cough*Slowtwitch*cough*).  I want them to know that I’m not interested in their standards.  Compare my results to yours all you want, and I hope they make you feel great.

I’m always interested in what races you are doing, will track you online and root for you, and find out how you think you did.  And while I’m sure your results will be very impressive (or maybe they won’t), I don’t judge your worth as a person by them nor do I compare my results to them.  This is because I’m not you.  I think sometimes people mistakenly think that because they are fast, or good, or whatever, that people automatically aspire to be what they are.  In the words of the “other” Ross from ‘Friends’, “You could not be more wrong.  You could try, but you would not be successful.”

I do this for myself.  And to the people that do this for fun, that might be slow – or maybe are fast but still are just doing this because it’s what they enjoy – always race your own race.  Don’t be held to anyone else’s standards – don’t take unsolicited advice – don’t pay attention to someone saying you can’t do something, or worse, say you won’t do something – block it out.  It’s all noise.  Put in your work, have fun, and race your race.  Anything else that someone else says doesn’t matter – just do your best and you can be secure in knowing that whatever that is, it’s always good enough.